We're behind on everything, barely still going. Anything helps. #MutualAidRequest

We're behind on everything, barely still going. Anything helps. #MutualAidRequest

Don't ever get on Suboxone. I mean, if you got millions in the bank, I guess you're fine, but if you depend on it being paid for, they can take it away and you will regret that you ever got on it.

It's winter and we have to keep the electricity on or freeze to death. Anything helps. #MutualAid

Everything else would be tolerable, sort of, somewhat, but the restlessness and anxiety makes it all so much worse. I wish I never took suboxone. I literally wish I had given a dirty urine and let parole put me back. I had 5 months left anyway. I'd have kicked and been DONE.

It was undoubtedly influenced by family and friends who can't just understand that something is awful without needing to offer advice about it. I had this dream, I was talking to someone, an amalgamation of all my advisors I guess, who recommended I look into rapid detox. Yeah.

"(Fill in basic reformist policy idea here) is not a radical idea!" Radical isn't a synonym for brick-throwing. It's a recognition of certain issues being systemic, requiring the abolition of those systems to address said issue. By all means, throw a brick, but also, GET RADICAL.

We're way behind on everything. Anything helps.

I almost hope I don't survive this. I might come out the other end a monster.

I can't have the medication I need in to stay alive, because that money is needed, by the most grotesque irredeemable subhuman pathogens in history, so that they can carry out the mass murder of children. If the people who supported this had cancer, I'd feel bad for cancer.

I'm sorry, what? Live streamed execution? And this will accomplish what? Deter future crimes? Seriously? I mean, it's the same administration that literally built a detention camp, out in the sticks, surrounded by a moat filled with alligators, so I'm not shocked, but still.

God. If I lose medicaid, that's the point of no return. Been trying to taper off Suboxone, but even subtracting a quarter of my dose is destroying me. I don't have much time, but I've been on it for years. There isn't an option that isn't torture.

My sister would've been 40 today. It's been some years, but it's still fresh, and I still wish she had planned for someone else to find her. I won't begrudge anyone their autonomy, the choice was hers to make, but why did I have to be the one to find her?

Today I learned Pentobarbital is used for lethal injection in Tennessee. I uhhh.... I've tried it, it was kinda nice. I knew it was used as an anesthetic, didn't know it was used for executions though.

Numbness kinda ruined my first couple years out, but now I feel like I'm overwhelmed again. If I had to choose, I would choose this because life is just empty and pointless when I can't feel anything, but I wish I could find some balance, somewhere in between.

They're reassessing my eligibility for Medicaid. I can't crowdfund Suboxone every month. It's impossible. I'm trying to prepare for the worst, but there's really not much I can do besides tell people I love them and goodbye.