Confessions of a Black Pilled Anarchist My heart left this fight along time ago but my feet were slow to follow. I fought with myself over abandoning the fight for true freedom but I can’t bring myself to give a shit anymore because why should I waste anymore of my time when the masses remain trapped in a rigged game and get combative with anyone who tries to show them the truth. I recently lost a good friend of mine. Someone who was one of only a handful of people I had any respect for. A real fucking Anarchist. Not these fake mother fuckers that are a 11 a dozen… you know what even that if given them too much credit. 1 in a million is more fitting. The thing that really hit home was the realization that he spent his life fighting for a revolution he would never see. He didn’t get to go down in a blaze of glory because instead of getting something that Heroic he had the honour of dying from a heart attack waiting for others to pull their heads out of their asses. The shame I feel at that is unbearable. He deserved better. He deserved to die a free man. And don’t delude yourself into thinking you’re free. We’re all slaves. The plantation just went free range because when people can room around a larger prison the wipe becomes less obvious. I’ve spent the last 20 years fighting for something I have no hope will ever come anymore. I’ve educated myself on all form of political theory I could, organized, networked, building bridges, argued in countless debates, joined marches as a street medic, trained myself and others and what has it gotten me?? Nothing. Worse than nothing it’s gotten me stabbed in the back and discarded by those who would rather sell out to the state because it’s easier to believe in the delusion that the ring of power could be used for anything other than evil and risk their own safety. It’s easier to twist your principles than to stand by them even if it costs you everything. I’ve had friends go to jail and lose their lives in the pursuit of a world that was always just a fairy tale apparently and that pisses me off more than anyone could imagine. Most are distracted by the puppet show and fall for the same tricks. Vote for team blue so they can steal more rights, cause more problems and steal resources so team red can come in and fix parts of those problems, create new ones, steal more rights and resources so the blue team can come in and fix parts of the problems, create new ones, steal more right and on and on it goes while they’re all distracted by pointless culture war bullshit. “Owning” other powerless people while corruption goes unpunished and the system keeps on turning. It’s maddening to witness that level of stupidity while they cope with whatever delusional brainwashing they have to in order to justify this continued exploitation and abuse. The “libertarians” are a lost cause. Minarchist fucking retards who put nationalism or race before principles. Yeah keep simping for your prison walls you fucking hacks. The commies… fuck it was stupidly of us to even try with them. We all know it ends the same way when anarchist and commies create a united front but at least they did us the curtesy of fucking us over before they had the “revolution” instead of after they got state power for themselves. There’s a sadistic part of me that hopes all those fucks who sold us out to join with the ACP or DSA get what they want and somehow win state power because I know they’ll be put up against the wall right next to me. I want to see their faces while they go through the stages of denial. I want to look them in the eyes when acceptance finally dawns on them that the “revolution” doesn’t need the revolutionaries after they obtain the reigns of the state so I can laugh right before they send us to the other side. And the anarchist… most of them would rather fight each other over petty differences consumed by their own totalitarian tendencies to realize how utterly fucked we are.