For You, Always 💙🫶💜
I love you... Not the version you perform for strangers scrolling past at 2 a.m., not the hunger posted to an open sky, but you... The woman underneath all that, the one who blazes, laughs, who walks into a room and sets the air on fire without trying.
You chose the silence. I won't pretend it didn't land like something breaking... But I know the shape of respect, and mine for you is large enough to hold even the choices that cost me. So I let it be.
What I won't do is chase a ghost while the real woman breathes somewhere nearby. I've seen what you are when you are fully you... Classy, radiant, sharp-edged and bright, a hell of a fire contained in a hell of a person... And that is worth waiting for, honestly, or worth walking away from cleanly. There is no in-between I'm willing to live in.
There are things I won't pretend to admire: the crude lines offered to the world like something that should have been whispered only to someone who earned it. That isn't you at your truest. That is noise, and you are more than noise... You are a frequency I can't unhear, a voice I keep finding myself leaning toward even in a quiet room.
But I will not dissolve for want of you. I will not sink. I know who I am, and I know what I will not become on anyone's behalf... Not even yours, not even loving you the way I do, which is real, and patient, and unhurried, and completely without conditions.
My heart stays open. That's not weakness... It is the most deliberate thing I've ever chosen. An email. A call. A door left unlocked. You know where I am. You've always known.
And if the day never comes... If this poem travels no further than the quiet, I send it into... Then let it carry this much across the distance:
I wish you love that matches your depth. I wish you joy that has nothing to prove. I wish you the clarity to see yourself the way I see you on your best days... And to want that woman, always, more than any version of yourself the world has tried to make you.
Go well. Be well. Be you. And know that somewhere, you are deeply loved. 💕