Today, I was admitted to the ER.
After years of asking questions about my back and feeling like something more was going on, a CT scan revealed something I wasn’t expecting.
The physician told me they could see evidence of prior trauma that was consistent with being kicked in the back.
That stopped me in my tracks.
For those who know my story, you know I survived an abusive situation when I was 16 years old.
Nearly 17 years later, I’m lying in a hospital bed with a herniated L5-S1 disc, being reminded that violence doesn’t always end when the moment is over.
Right now, I literally cannot walk.
I am entirely immobile.
Hopefully, this is temporary. I am praying and believing that it is. But lying here unable to move has made me realize how quickly freedom can be lost, and how easily we take it for granted until it is gone.
Sometimes the scars stay hidden.
Sometimes the consequences don’t surface for years.
Sometimes the pain shows up decades later.
It made me think about something that has become central to everything I believe.
We spend so much of our lives talking about fixing broken things.
But what if our greatest responsibility is preventing them from breaking in the first place?
Abusers don’t simply stop because time passes.
Corruption doesn’t disappear because we ignore it.
Broken systems don’t heal themselves.
Whether it’s within a family, a community, or a nation, harm continues until someone has the courage to confront it, stop it, and protect others from experiencing the same damage.
That is one of the deepest convictions behind The Hope Factor.
Hope is not pretending everything will work out.
Hope is taking responsibility before preventable harm becomes generational.
It’s having the courage to step in early, speak the truth, build healthy cultures, strengthen families, hold institutions accountable, and create communities where fewer people have to spend decades recovering from wounds that never should have been inflicted.
As I begin my own recovery, I’m grateful to finally have answers.
I’m grateful that God has carried me this far.
And I’m more convinced than ever that prevention is one of the greatest acts of leadership and love we can offer another human being.
If my story encourages even one person to leave an abusive situation, intervene on behalf of someone who can’t protect themselves, advocate for answers about their own health, or refuse to look away when something is wrong, then sharing it is worth it.
Please keep me in your prayers as I begin the road to healing. I look forward to sharing this journey with all of you.