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I need to say something about a situation I’m currently dealing with. I can’t explain exactly what has happened or share the details publicly because I’m not allowed to at this point, and I need to respect that. What I can say is that I am being harassed, and this has gone far beyond a normal disagreement or someone simply being upset with me. There is a lot happening behind the scenes that I cannot talk about right now, which makes it incredibly difficult to defend myself publicly or explain the full situation. I also want to make one thing very clear: anything being said or spread about me online in relation to this situation is NOT true. Please don’t automatically believe things you see or hear simply because someone is presenting them as facts. There is a reason I’m not responding to every accusation publicly, and that reason is that I have to handle this properly. If you come across posts, comments, messages, screenshots, accounts, or any other information about me being shared, please tell me and send me screenshots if you can. Please don’t engage with the people posting it, argue with them, or make the situation worse. I simply need to know what is being said so I can document it. Everything is being kept as evidence and passed on to the appropriate person. Even things that might seem insignificant can be important when documenting a pattern of harassment. I know people may be curious about what is happening, but there are things I cannot say right now. I’m asking everyone to please respect that. If you see something about me, send it to me rather than spreading it further. I’m taking this seriously, I’m documenting everything, and I will deal with this through the proper channels. Thank you to everyone who understands and respects that I cannot say more at this time.

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Hi London, I missed you 🥹

October 16th is going to fuck me up. 💔 I'm seeing Niall that day, in the exact same venue where I saw One Direction for the first time on May 3rd, 2013. The same place where I heard Liam's voice live for the very first time. And now, 13 years later, I'll be standing in that exact same venue on the 2-year anniversary of losing him. After Niall sings End of an Era, the song he wrote about Liam, Liam's voice will play through that venue again. And knowing that will probably be the last time I'll hear his voice in that room honestly breaks my heart. It's not a goodbye. It could never be. I'll never say goodbye to Liam. He's part of me, part of my life, and always will be. But hearing his voice there again, on the day we lost him, after Niall sings a song written about him... I don't think there's any way I'm getting through that without completely falling apart. That place holds one of the happiest memories of my life, because it's where I first got to hear Liam live. And somehow, it'll now hold another memory of him too. Liam, I wish you were there. I wish I could hear you live one more time. But I'll be standing there, listening to your voice, loving you and missing you like I always do. 🤍💔

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I am not going survive seeing Niall the 16th 💔

Oh Niall 🥹💔

Niall has played an audio of Liam speaking after singing "End of an Era" during his show tonight. 🥺

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Sure, your "mommy" wrote them 🤡 And you sure as hell never kept Liam safe #JusticeForLiam

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Oh roo 💔

Almost 15 years ago, I got my very first One Direction tattoo: "Dare to dream." It was the title of their very first book and I remember how much those words meant to me back then. I definitely never imagined that almost 15 years later, I’d be looking at a whole collection of tattoos dedicated to them. And every single one has a reason. "History" is there because it’s my favourite One Direction song. It’s one of those songs that just hits differently depending on where you are in life, and having the title in Niall’s actual handwriting makes it feel so much more personal. It’s not just the name of a song I love, it’s a reminder of everything that was and everything that will always be part of my history. "Only time will tell…" It has always been my favourite tattoo that Liam had himself. I’ve loved those words for years and getting them permanently on my skin felt like a way of carrying a little piece of something that meant something to him, too. The smiley is for Louis, because obviously. Something so simple that instantly makes me think of him. I wanted something that represented Louis without needing an explanation and that little smile does exactly that. The five arrows came after Liam passed. Five arrows, because there will always be five of them to me. I wanted something that represented One Direction as a whole, but I also wanted Liam to have something that was specifically his. So one of the arrows is red, inspired by the colour of Liam’s microphone. It’s such a small detail, but it means everything to me. "We’ll be alright, love ♡" is in Liam’s handwriting, and that alone makes this one incredibly difficult to put into words. Having something written by his own hand permanently on me feels incredibly precious. And I love that the words themselves connect all of them, appearing in lyrics from One Direction, Harry, Louis and Niall. It feels like a little reminder that, despite everything changing over the years, that connection will always be there. And then there’s "Walking in the Wind", one of my favourite One Direction songs. I chose it because the song itself carries so much emotion for me and I wanted to combine it with flowers that have meaning rather than just adding flowers for the sake of it. The August birth flower is my favourite flower and represents Liam’s birth month, while the October birth flower represents my birth month and the month we lost him. So that tattoo somehow holds both of us in it. Some of these tattoos were chosen because I loved a song. Some because I loved a little detail about one of the boys. Some because I wanted to hold onto something that could never be taken away from me. 🫶🏻

I'll forever hate Wednesdays 💔🕊