Pressure of life !!
Owning my own IP was my dream from more than a decade ago.. but I never had the chance or the funds to do it
so when I got the chance in 2025 with memecoins I took it and went all in, I did 18h/day streams drawing like crazy.. but that dedication backfired on my body
I started feeling pain in my neck, streaming drawing is different I had to look down so it was a lot of pressure on my neck
I didnt have time to care about the pain or go to doctor I was finally doing what I wanted to to for 15 years
I delayed the doctor visit to the point that one time I couldt feel anything on my left part of the body for a few hours and I got scared
I visited a doctor, couldnt blieve what I heard so I visited another doctor, still couldnt blieve it, talked to AI about it! everyone said one thing, I could go paralyzed and its very close, its a hard turning back or just a bad sleep away from me
the treatment was very expensive, like it was cheaper to just go paralyzed !! so I started to look at the alternatives, one popular option was Iran, cheap treatment same quality, I didnt have much time so I packed my ipad and flew to tehran booked it and started getting treatment
it was going good in general and work was being done and I was getting to a good point again in every way
then internet got cut off and bombs started droping
I was mainly in the house I rented because I was afraid to go out, just taped every window and sat in home afraid with no connection, it was not like a war zone to be honest there was plenty of food electricity water gas everything was almost normal in day time except the internet connection that was everything to me
but that was only the day time, night time was terrifying, sounds of more near bombs and vibrations of heavy distant bombs, I remember thinking this is a cowardly way of fighting, innocent's peoples lives getting rekt and I couldnt get a fear free sleep for night after night
I was able to get access to the internet through a friend a few weeks before people could do it. it was like a starlink connection vpn and then I also was able to get another way to connect before others could through my friend.
life was much better with that connection but terrifying nights with air defences and jets and bombs were still there
I dont know how but somehow I survived all that, I started working out again yoga and bodybuilding, I'm back to routine life, I got back my health and good sleep after a few weeks, I'm still doing some treatments to make sure its not coming back but basically living a normal life at this point
I think I'm a survivor, now I'm coming to take back what I think is mine with the same survivor mentality and toughness, I'm going to finish what Ive started, ,making a well known IP born out of crypto trenches
for that I needed a new start a fresh one to make necessary adjustments.