I thought I will skip statement, but I don't think it would be okay with all the pepole who are not that close to me to talk 1on1. Maybe you saw some bad screens about me and honestly, I know what I did and I'm not even that worried because most of the guys who knows me closer texted me instantly and told me like they know it wasn't intentional - it's true screens are kinda out of context what is not changing the fact like I wrote it. To give you some more context on the whole situation I was playing some event with my friends as player while ago when I was 15 maybe 16 years old (I will comeback to age later). I wanted to have chill event, owner of the event was from the same country as me or other players from my team so we had good vibes with him, I didn't know if I should call an admin, he didn't know aswell and since I was pretty young + the whole situation with trans pepole was very new for me I didn't see problem in asking someone about pronounces that way. I'm really respectful to all people and I think everyone can do anything they want to do. I wouldn't say I'm transphobic it was just my first experience with that and I didn't know what is appropriate. Coming back to "n word" case me or my team (sorry it was a while ago as I said) got called n words by admin or some guy from community of the event. I asked of admins can warn those person, but there was no rule about being racist so admins didn't do that - I got frustrated a bit and I decided to ask if n word is allowed in that case, at the end of the day admins finally decided to add rule about that racism is not allowed. Honestly I never expected to be accussed for racism XD it's something I would never do. The thing someone might look different doesn't mean they are worse or they should be treated in another way. And thank god all of the guys who are closer to me knows I would never say something bad about someone because he looks different than me. Last part is about myself having some high ego, huh. So guys do you know what is holocaust ? As you might know I'm from Poland and I'm proud of it, my friend checked VOD of the team we played against in first round and on VOD enemy team started some trash talk with holocaust, they said it in very bad way. It hit us the most. War wasn't easy for us and this is part of the worst period for Poland as country. Our grandparents were fighting there and... Well the whole business of calling someone a "no1" was preceded by the opposing team bringing up the holocaust in an inappropriate way. If you are a player who ever tried to spoke with me in a nice way you know I always tried to do the most I was able to do for you even if it took me some time. I'm aware of that the stuff I did isn't nice, but I also want to tell you the whole situation isn't as bad as it looks. The fact someone shared the screenshoots didn't hit me to be honest which is why I didn't want to do some highly well thought out statement. I just want to make you sure I'm not a bad person pookies, Perhaps at one time I lacked knowledge on a certain subject, but I never had any ill intentions. See you around ♥️