I decided to unpin the tweet I had about the ZK-EVM. I'm going to pin this one instead. What I wanted to say is this: Building it the way I did said a lot about me. I believe the way it was dismissed says a lot about them. I've moved on to other things. I feel increasingly better not thinking about it. It's just better off that we don't ever have anything to do with each other. I don't expect I'll ever try attending a crypto event ever again. It was only my mistake for expecting something different. I've learned a valuable lesson.

2029 is my year. That's the time where "this isn't working" becomes obvious. No company abandons a few years of a media narrative that makes it look like they're making progress. In some ways they are but it comes with a structural ceiling. They know it. I know it. Delaying now is going to look less pretty as that time approaches. I'll be willing to say no to a lot of money.

Crazy in the NBA you can shoot 48% from the field and 43% from three, be projected for 48% and 41% from three, 8 points and 3 assists and because you're no longer a "project" you can only end up with a two-way contract. Malachi Smith

I hate when people make professional sports player ranking lists and then decide to demerit some players for having injury concerns and not others. You don't get to demerit one player for injury and then not demerit others. It's either all injury concerns are taken into consideration or they are left out.

I will intentionally fuck up relationships I don't want anymore and get myself kicked out of groups I no longer want to be a part of. I know what it's like to live and tolerate these things and I have such a better life by getting rid of them.

I want to bond with someone about prison documentaries or large financial frauds cases.

I needed to jump through several hoops in order that I would be able to publish my big discovery from last year and minimize any potential risk of the world being unable to deal with it — namely to accelerate even more the time it will take for someone to get to a cryptographically relevant quantum computer. I have a big paper to publish tomorrow morning which looks to be a major setback for the world of cryptography but is really the important confidence it needs to move forward and come up with a plan. I think some people may be able to guess what it is I'm publishing.

Putting a stock on a normal chain is just doing retail. It's not critical infrastructure and it will never achieve the kind of scale a lot of people seem to believe. I'm in a very different market. I believe that financial infrastructure does need to be gradually migrated. I built the only infrastructure that could ever do it.

My own fault it took so long but Avalanche paid me what I won from last year's hackathon yesterday. For what I disagree with them about I find it very challenging to believe they wouldn't consider it a reputational threat if someone were to accuse them of not paying a grant based on publicly stated criteria. Ethereum wanted to roll those dice and for that they will need to punished. It will slowly become obvious that this was the worst mistake they've ever made. I'll be around checking in every year showing more and more of what it's going to cost them.

The fun part is that I knew better than them why a borderless decentralized system should exist. Trust me it's not as a settlement layer the world doesn't fucking need a settlement layer with $100B economic security. They made it up because it's something they thought people would believe. Not enough people have challenges them on the fundamental problems of what they are saying will be the future. I promise to tell you the truth.

Probably the only time I've actually wasted is trying to cold message people for anything. It's a near-zero hit rate and basically not worth any of your time. Meeting the requirements of a posted about grant is obviously excluded from this situation. But generally the lesson is unless there's some kind of application to fill out it's not worth your energy to engage.

piped.video/GGJSRFWALTI?si=vHpz… These are like the two people in the world that captivate me the most. For very different reasons. She's tricky. I can't tell if she's deceiving Nathan in that particular moment but I suspect overall there was some deception. I can't wait to watch this!

What I've noticed over the last few years is how much the optimization and decision making is made only covering the next 6-12 months. People will make terrible decisions that affect the long term outcome dramatically prioritizing this window. On the other hand I'm very comfortable with taking what's after 12 months.

It's really dumb everytime I see a General Manager of a pro sports team sell their visible assets too late after they've lost most of their value. A few years ago the Raptors traded OG and Siakam basically at the last possible time. I'm not sure why they had thought they wanted to compete for so long without even a top 20 player in the league. If they sold at not even the right moment but just a decent one they would have ended up with 3 more firsts than they have today. That's enough to go buy you 1 more top 50 player which is exactly what they need.

I pretty much gave the EF people one last chance to make it right. I showed a comparatively small hammer and asked them to pay me. The problem is what happens when I find a much bigger hammer which is what ended up happening. The money was important but it was less important than the social contract of meeting public criteria and showing me respect for what I accomplished. There isn't another opportunity for them.

On stage and in interviews Macklemore tells Jewish listeners that criticism of Israel, “apartheid,” and “genocide” is “in no way a criticism of you,” and that Judaism and Zionism “are not linked.” He highlights Jews who join anti-Zionist protests as the authentic example and treats the rest as having been sold a political ideology that can be detached from Jewish peoplehood. That is an identity instruction coming from someone who is not Jewish. Some Jews accept the framing and already live that way. Many others treat the historic connection to the land, and the existence of a Jewish state after centuries of statelessness, as part of what being Jewish means to them. They are not required to accept Macklemore’s version of the distinction just because he repeats it to a stadium. He is free to hold the view and to say it. The people he is addressing are equally free to reject the demand that they split their identity the way he prefers. That disagreement is the whole point of the original observation: you cannot usefully order people to separate the two when a large number of them do not experience them as separate.

I give myself enormous credit for coming out of the situation I was in. For years I experienced such outrageous pain across the entire left side of my body that most people could barely imagine. They don't have help for this kind of situation other than to tell you to take anti-inflammatory. I was never prescribed pain killers although my situation would have definitely warranted it.

Omg they called it MAPLE! piped.video/_8kY2wkoHbg?si=aJoE…

I've never subscribed to the thesis that all use cases would go on one chain. There are obviously scenarios where it makes sense to diversify. I'm not after all of it just the vast majority. Most of it benefits from being on one chain that has privacy, regional data sovereignty, and the ability to use f64 arithmetic. A technology like this starts looking more like critical infrastructure for the next generation of finance instead of a technology business. There is obviously money to be made, but it's secondary to the point of having it and what kind of effect it can have on the world. Very disappointing there were people who decided not to invest in it. I built it anyways without them. The only difference will be that they sit on the sidelines for the larger volume of finance that will go on-chain and they won't be part of facilitating a kind of innovation which has a dramatic effect on the world. Some people call it business. I call it stupidity.

There's a hollow place in my heart for encountering so many people that honestly should know better. Other people may have expected this kind of scenario but I'm either naive or too optimistic. There's often not much I can do on their account. I just keep acting with the best guidelines I have and hope the right outcome will find me eventually independent of other people getting to judge.

I eat very little and I've settled into 3-4 hours of fast paced walking the last few weeks. It's kind of autopilot but losing 3 pounds a week.