Update: The baby seems okay, heart rate good but measuring small. However the hematoma has over doubled in size! I am very discouraged and don't know what to do. Lots of bleeding still. All this despite bed rest.

When I said in that now viral podcast clip that women shouldn't normatively have "unsupervised access to one another," I didn't mean that women should cancel their knitting groups. Here's what I did (and didn't) mean: First, the entire section was unscripted and off the cuff. Like most things I say that go viral, it's entirely unpredictable which parts will get clipped and turned into reels by libs with millions of followers. So was I being precise to the tenth decimal point? Definitely not. So let me say: It is easy to see why it would sound ridiculous out of context to say that women can't have "unsupervised access to one another." Because as a standalone statement, it's not really what I meant. Contextually, I was talking about the duty of a husband to protect and lead his wife. In an age of internet-driven social contagion, designer mental illnesses, and millions of women defending a woman who methodically strangled her own children (the context of the episode), this duty requires a man to know who has access to his wife. He should be asking, "Who is influencing her? Which women are speaking into her life? What are they telling her? If she were to become more like the women she regularly beholds, would she become more godly or less?" So when I say "unsupervised access to one another," I was talking about the frankly insane idea that it is normative for women to be unattached from male authority in general. Normatively speaking, God designed the world such that a woman is under the authority and protection of her father, then her husband. It is only in abnormal situations—like a young woman with a foolish father or a woman who is widowed—for a woman to find herself outside of the protection and authority of a man. That is the sense in which I'm using the word "normative" above. Normative, referring to God's initial design for a thing. So do I believe that a husband must lurk behind his wife whenever she's having lunch with a friend? Absolutely not. But should a husband know who his wife is friends with and what kind of women those friends are? Absolutely. It's the same with social media, but the dangers are amplified a thousandfold. There are millions of voices online vying for the attention of my wife. They're all trying to shape her, disciple her, teach her, and persuade her to believe them. As it is my duty to love, lead, and protect her as her head, this is highly relevant. I would fail in my duty if I was passive in my oversight of her. If I didn't pay attention, if I didn't ask questions. If I didn't take stock of who is being allowed to whisper in my wife's ear—even if that whispering comes through a social media algorithm. I hope all of the above is properly basic enough that even a lot of my haters can agree. Now carry on with the memes! I am enjoying them immensely. 😂

Every time I put down my phone (stop numbing my feelings by doom scrolling) the mind wheels start turning and I start weeping again. Genuinely how do you stop crying when you can't stop crying. I tried prayer but that makes me weep too. The only thing that works is dissociation

"Babe, it's my honor to serve you." - my husband, after I told him I feel bad that he has to come home from 12hrs of work to do dishes, laundry, cooking and bedtime because I'm on bedrest

Finding this again, I think it needs to be my new pfp

Prov 21:24 says: “A proud and haughty man— “Scoffer” is his name; He acts with arrogant pride.” You can examine an idea - like whether or not your husband should monitor your social media - without becoming a scoffer (so prideful you think you’re beyond accountability)

With my 1st I did everything possible (other than prescription meds) to stop the severe nausea I had. With my 4th, after 2 MMC with no nausea, I won't do anything for it because it's the biggest reassurance I have that she's still alive in there.

Pregnancy will have you feeling nostalgic for coffee

Sorry guys I decided to watch a British comedy show, but I have shelved all recommends for after this🫡

This year I have walked through the valley of the shadow of death many times, but He is with me, and I will fear no evil.

Okay guys! Give me movie recommendations for while I'm on bedrest!

Really really heavy bleeding the last 12 hours. 😔 And midwife only then told me that she's worried about baby's heart beat rate from last week, because it's too low. Next scan is tomorrow. This is a rollercoaster.

Need to get off of bed rest so I can go sweater thrifting

in my dreams I see you (this sweater)

weekly vibes, autumn edition

Tomorrow is a reset day! Monday, first 70° day, week of autumn equinox, 7w pregnant. Will be doing bedrest on the porch reading w my toddler.

No joke tho I am about to do a 2 day raw milk fast to help the hematoma.

our house finally got some drywall!!