Quick vent/Yap session, because I've had this sitting in my head for a while. I've actually avoided posting something like this because I don't really like putting this kind of stuff out there, but it's been a thorn in my side for long enough that I kind of just want to say it. I've been thinking a lot about being a VTuber lately, and I don't really think I have a clean conclusion to any of it. I like streaming. I like making videos. I like having this character and this little space online that I've been trying to build. But I also keep wondering if I'm actually interesting enough to do this. I see other VTubers making clips, posting all the time, collabing, growing really fast, building these really active communities, and then I look back at what I'm doing and wonder... what am I actually bringing to this? A lot of my streams really are just me playing a game I like and talking about it. Sometimes somebody comes in and we end up having a conversation, most times nobody does. Sometimes I'm talking a ton, and sometimes I realize I've been sitting there quietly watching a story play out because I'm just... absorbing it. Lately I've been catching myself treating that as the evidence I need to convince myself, that I am really bad at this. I'll look at the fact that I've barely made clips, I don't make separate videos that often, I don't collab, and I don't post every day, and I start thinking that I'm just not doing enough. Which I already know I'm not, and that's a part of my issue... but also probably a separate conversation. At the same time, I'm trying to squeeze all of this into an already tight schedule while also wearing a bunch of other hats that matter to me. And that's where this question comes in... If I'm already giving this what I feel I can, and I still feel like I'm not doing enough, is continuing the right move? Not because I don't want to do it, I really do. I guess part of me still thinks maybe I can just keep doing this how I can. I will keep getting better and things will change. I'll stream when I have time, make content when I have time, slowly build something over time and it'll be enough. Though maybe that's me being naive. But I think that's the idea I keep coming back to.

I understand that the Vtuber markets are female focused, but its so hard to find a male pre-made customizable model that I really like. There are very few nice ones, and its rare to find one that match you within those.

Earlier this year I decided to start toward a custom VTuber model... and as of tonight, I think I'm dropping the project. I wanted to share a few thoughts and lessons learned in case anyone else is considering one. To start, I went in with too vague of a plan. I thought I knew exactly what I wanted, but I really didn't. Over the last seven months, the idea gradually shifted from where it started. I think that was my biggest mistake. A few doubts started creeping in a couple months ago too. Some examples of the rigging weren't quite what I'd want for my model, and the designs themselves kept landing outside the direction I had envisioned. That led to multiple revisions and eventually an entire base rework. I'd genuinely love to hear the perspective of VTuber artists, because this was my first time commissioning something like this. Even with references and increasingly detailed descriptions, I kept finding that the resulting designs were noticeably different from what I was trying to communicate. Maybe some of that comes down to artistic interpretation, but I started questioning whether I was just terrible at describing what I wanted. So I tested that. I took essentially the same descriptions elsewhere just to see whether the idea I had in my head was actually coming through... and it was. That made me realize the problem probably wasn't entirely that I didn't know how to communicate the concept I wanted. I can't help feeling a little let down by the whole thing. I definitely came out of it with more experience and a better understanding of what I want from a future model. That's valuable at least. It's disheartening to look at something you tried so hard to describe with such detail, and realize that what you wanted and what you ended up with were still very far apart.

Twitch and Amazon are being sued in a class action over claims that the tech companies harvest creators' video streams without permission or compensation to train Amazon's generative AI program. Story: courthousenews.com/online-st…

😂How did those questions give me this answer? Alright then~ The most suitable career for Syrae is Administrative Officer of the Zapolyarny Palace. Participate in the test to receive Primogems ×160 and a chance to win Intertwined Fate ×10. You can participate multiple times. #SnezhnayaCareerTest @GenshinImpact snezhnayacareertest-en.belug…

Twitch now uses your channel to train generative AI by default. You can opt out of some training here: twitch.tv/settings/security

You know, as a very small streamer I am already well versed in the approaching sales pitch chatter. They hop in stream, ask casual questions (how’s the stream? How’s your experience with the game?) sometimes toss in a compliment (or a critique) then follow up with the real reason you’re there: the pitch. It’s obvious, and the pitch ruins the connection before it. You’re much more likely to get a commission from me by talking to me normally and making a genuine connection. Share your art as a real passion and when I need something you’d be the first to come to mind. Otherwise you’re just making sure I don’t go to you later because I feel targeted. 🤷

Yesterday morning I fried my phones logic board ( I think. We're still figuring it out, but I am pretty sure this is it.) It is crazy how much we rely on phones. It is involved in every piece of my day, and I've felt so out of place without it. My phone is out of commission until the end of the week.

#GenshinImpact #Nicole ..."Editor of Magical Memory Bubbles,""Staunch Supporter of Squirrels," "A Super-Creative Who Needs Only Think to Get Things Done"... "Alice? Why are the titles on the spell formula getting longer and longer?" — Thus did a voiceless mage protest, albeit in vain. ◆ Name: Nicole ◆ Title: Clamor Within ◆ The Silent "Mage," the Voiceless "Angel" ◆ Vision: Pyro ◆ Constellation: Reliquiarium

I don’t think people talk about this enough, but… has anyone else felt scared of their own growth? not failure… but things actually going well? I’ve realized that can be just as overwhelming in a different way curious if anyone else has felt that too 🤔

I've been a YouTuber for over 4 years now, it's been a pretty amazing journey, we've done some wonderful things and currently I am working on my biggest ever projects and YET this is probably the lowest I've ever felt. I'm so tired, I'm so done and I'm tired of following all the rules and just having random people be able to take everything away with no checks, just AI and automated responses governing whether or not a creator can pay their bills. It's coming up to a week, no response, no help, the 24/7 creator team hasn't replied in an entire day. I feel like there is no one even working at Twitch at this point. A random person can issue a takedown and they suffer no consequences. What's the point. I'm fed up, so let's talk about the problem - youtu.be/adEBsA-ljCk?si=sv0L… 💔

I thought this was a pineapple… 🍍🤣 Please tell me I’m not the only one

Ananta’s crash physics feel… off. Full reactions on my channel (link in bio)

Why is it so... jiggly?

Merry Christmas 🎄 and happy holidays to everyone, whether you celebrate or not. Thank you for all the recent support. It genuinely means so much! I’m excited to keep sharing reactions and content with you as we head into the new year 💛

VTuber problems. #Vtuber

Creators make it look effortless, but I know it’s hours of practice. I’m picking things up one step at a time, and their consistency keeps me moving forward. 🙃

My first time reaction to the Lauma Character Trailer is live now!! 🌳 🦌 🌳 🐿️ 🌳 yt.openinapp.co/SyraeVT-Laum…