another fun fact - on the ride to texas, i was talking shit about God and AA and how smart and sciencey i was. and everyone was smoking, popping MY pills (including my future wife in the backseat) and she made a comment towards me and said “actually, you would thrive in AA” and i turned around and said “don’t ever talk to me again” and the beef began (but we secretly had crushes on each other the whole time - thank God we reconnected and found each other once we got sober. she would have ODed with me if we got together back then and i would’ve killed her cuz of my drug use) hindsight - someone has never been more right and i more wrong in my life.