One of the strangest things about us: we can know exactly what would do us good and still refuse to do it. We are so stubborn and proud that we reject even the most obvious things—things that would bring us nothing but gain—simply because we cannot bear to surrender our will.
“What is to be done with the millions of facts testifying to how people knowingly, that is, fully understanding their real profit, would put it in second place and throw themselves onto another path, a risk, a perchance, not compelled by anyone or anything, but precisely as if they simply did not want the designated path, and stubbornly, willfully pushed off onto another one, difficult, absurd, searching for it all but in the dark. So, then, this stubbornness and willfulness were really more agreeable to them than any profit…Profit!”
Notes from Underground, Fyodor Dostoyevsky