journal #37 losing im ngl i think the past 5 days have legit only been red for me, i hate looking at my pnl, but after the losses ive been taking its become a habit and ive been checking my pnl so often now because ive been seeing my trading port in my axiom for both robinhood and sol just melt away thankfully i dont have bad risk management, so how much im down is really just less than one good trade on a coin, but recently, especially on robinhood, i havent seen green, like at all, and it's definitely because there is barely anything to make on, and the ceilings are so low, yet i continue being a bull and roundtrip coins for losses because i have high targets, or go too heavy into coins becuase of how much i like them and when they dont play out i lose .5-1 eth and it just adds up to where my wins are not outweighing my losses at all on sol the mistake im making is trading it how i traded robinhood, on robinhood i could buy prebond, it would go 200k-300k, i would trim a bit, then it goes down to 50k, and i just keep buying and buying and it curls back to 500k-1 mil+, and with coins not dying after the first pump i was actually able to maximize my wins by being able to stick to my conviction and not rely on a wallet to make the coin go up, i could genuinely trade the narrative, i feel like i cant do that on sol, the way i get vamped sometimes is so irritating as well, like there was a 1:1 the other day that vamped just because the image of the coin was a little more zoomed out than the other and i get drilled, but there is nothing i can do but do my best to adapt on sol, i find myself complaining too much about sol i need to just suck it up and get good i was also honestly considering not even trading sol at all, and the day before yesterday i bridged everything out, but this morning i spoke to icon who i trench daily with and it's just that there is definitely money to be made on sol, so i bridged back and i restarted with exactly 30 sol i lost like 4 sol and then fullported the 26 i had left into collect and was up like 170 sol on it but i roundtripped some and ended up making 100, so now ive finally been green on sol and it 3xed the trading port i started with i knew this was how it was going to playout tbh to grow my new sol port, i knew i was going to end up just waiting for a pve and fullporting it to move the port a bunch to have a good start, so im glad it played out and by only starting with 30 sol it led me to be disciplined since i wasnt starting with much and i waited for just one pve to make a lot and boost my port + confidence so applying what i just did on sol, i moved everything out my robinhood port as well and just like how in the last 4 weeks i forced my self to grow from the 1.6 eth i had and took it to multi hundred eth, im doing the same now again with a low robinhood starting balance and i moved everything out to only start with 3.5 eth, and this isnt some challenge bs where im going to post my port updates, i think thats gay and retarded im up a little more than 1 eth i think idek i took like 4 trades since i restarted my balance since it's so dead but after starting with a low blance on robinhood ive already noticed the difference ive been trying my best to be selective and not be too bullish on coins, but i wont let this completely brainwash me from ever being bullish on coins again or something, there's time to be very bullish and hold and there's also times where i just need to accept the coin is topped and take my profit but i think once you find yourself losing and going in circles with no change this is the solution, to discipline and humble yourself by starting with a low port no matter how rich you are and allow yourself to take the time to get back into the flow of things better days ahead