I just feel like such a monster and a disgusting freak of nature at times, a lot of times no ounce of love ever shown to me has ever felt genuine and saying that feels so selfish anyway so like i probably shouldn’t care
i think im just hardwired to be a miserable person, its in my nature to be unhappy. even when something good happens to me it doesnt really make me feel anything but emptiness and guilt because i feel like im being ungrateful.
Everyone in this music shit either being homophobic or defending rapists like i know i basically have no real prod career but i fr don’t want this shit bad enough at times