i feel like for a couple of years there ilya felt like both shane & svetlana’s only benefit they got from him was sex. that there wasn’t anything about him that was worthy of pure love. that he could only make them feel good physically but not emotionally, that he was too much
ilya telling svetlana, “i don’t deserve you” and then telling shane, “you don’t like me,” breaks my heart because ilya thinks he is hard to love, and meanwhile svetlana and shane would do anything for him. that’s their baby