a lot of it for me is also masking and I do it automatically and once I'm omw home from work for example I'm coming off of it and I just crash. it's so draining to constantly exhaust yourself to function. sucks the life out of you.
I think people underestimate how tired you can be from just having too much on your mind! Not even physically tired! Just tired of remembering things, handling things, thinking ahead, fixing stuff, making decisions, being needed, tryna stay afloat etc. That's just a lot for real.