I’m going to step away for a while.
Charlie meant more to me than I can put into words. I’ve been contributing to TPUSA for years, and he has been in my headphones for hundreds of hours.
Yesterday my grief finally turned into anger, and I don’t like how it makes me feel. I lashed out at someone who didn’t deserve it. I don’t feel like myself, and I don’t know how to process this.
Intellectually, I know he’s gone. But my heart hasn’t accepted it. Please come back, Charlie. Roll away the stone.
I can’t handle this on my own. I am trying, so hard.
I’m going to seek grief counseling.
I’ll be back when things are better. Please pray for me in the meantime.
I’m sorry, but I just don’t feel like posting right now.
Love you guys.