I find it difficult to self-categorise. The Substack is a scattered map. Each post appears to examine something different. But together they reveal a coherent project: To increase man’s authorship over the conditions of his existence.

The masculine system thrives on oscillation Stress exposure strengthens prefrontal-amygdala connectivity. Metabolic/cognitive strain increases BDNF, triggers mitochondrial biogenesis, and enhances executive network plasticity. All of which consolidate during parasympathetic rebound - the phase where synaptic reconstruction occurs. There's a reason I emphasise the power in operating between alternate periods of extremes - Steady-state existence produces neither adaptation nor resilience. 1. Conquer 2. Reconsolidate Follow the natural laws and life get 1000x easier. I promise you

Curating the perfect routine ,optimal lifestyle, diet & sleep pattern = debasement of human experience A steady-state existence produces neither adaptation nor resilience Enduring controlled stress: - triggers mitochondrial biogenesis - increases BDNF - strengthens prefrontal-amygdala connectivity - induces neuroplasticity The nervous system adapts through polarity.

If you are the type to travel abroad but avoid the local cuisine because you’re scared of getting ill, you’re probably right in doing so. Your mental fragility goes hand in hand with a physical incapacity for resilience. (you’re excused if you travel to India) Conversely, those who do not consider the possibility of getting ill, are far less likely to do so. The picky eater fuels their existence based on a diet of fear. Using fear based reasoning to determine your nutritional intake is fragile + regressive to reject the unknown is to insulate from experience. If you’re unwilling to encounter the world in its full expression, you are inept as a man. You’re going to be defeated by a mushroom? A tomato? You go out for a business dinner, a date, an important meeting + you are willing to concede defeat to a tomato, a mushroom or a plate of asparagus? If above the age of 5, you should probably have a quiet word with yourself. (And if you have a son, enabling this kind of behaviour is criminal) Finishing your plate when presented with food (no matter how disgusting) = enacting the masculine principle of closure. what is begun must be completed. To waste is to deny the cost of creation. I remember being forced to eat whatever was left on my plate. It wasn’t an option to ‘leave food’. Wasting food was a crime. My ‘preferences’ didn’t come into it. To be afforded the luxory of preference when it comes to food given to you but obtained/provided/ acquired by somebody else, is cowardly and vulgar

What’s interesting is the comorbidity between the 2 conditions ADHD and autism can produce opposite behaviours while sharing a significant amount of neurodevelopmental architecture And when both exist in the same man, the outcome is often 1+1=3 kind of problem Aka neurological civil war The ADHD side wants novelty, the autistic side wants predictability. one side becomes restless when nothing changes, the other becomes dysregulated when too much changes. ADHD requires routine + structure Autism requires severance from routine + structure Without these, each respective phenotype starts to become rigid in trajectory ADHD = the struggle to generate enough salience to remain engaged. Autism = assigning so much salience to particular sensations, interests or disruptions that disengagement becomes too difficult When you pair them both together, the same individual can simultaneously crave + fear chaos at the same time You exist within a paradoxical limbo state between structure:entropy The result is a standstill tug-of-war where nothing of any value can be abstracted. If you crave freedom but become dysfunctional without structure, this might be you If you find yourself constructing rigid routines, performing exceptionally for several weeks, then suddenly experiencing the routine itself as imprisonment and consequently , destroying it - this also might be you. You want people until people become intolerable. You crave stimulation up until the point stimulation becomes overwhelming (because you likely overshot, trying to keep up with the demands of your adhd side - the dopaminergic-crack fiend) You start ten projects and wait until one consumes your entire nervous system - At which point, the threshold has been met and you’re finally ready to go all-in. I suspect it explains a majority of the stalled potential seen in high-IQ neurodivergent men Novelty-seeking creates entrepreneurs and addicts through variations of the same machinery. Autistic persistence can either produce extraordinary mastery or sterile, robotic repetition of low ROI behaviours Low concern for social consensus can either produce original thinkers or socially isolated reclusive incels incapable of incorporating corrective feedback Everything depends on direction + leverage The highest-functioning Au/ADHD types will likely never live a perfectly balanced life (nor should they aim to achieve one) You would function better through controlled oscillation: periods of extreme focus followed by expansion structure followed by novelty solitude followed by social exposure, Etc If this resonates with you, then stop expecting one permanent operating mode to solve a complex system built around competing demands. adapt and you shall conquer

How much weight does your name carry when you’re no longer in the room? For a man there exists no greater form of appraisal than recognition of supreme agency

Reminder: 1. Men do not use jacuzzis 2. You are not Tony Montana If, in order to sit with yourself, you require the presence of warm bubbles, you have some serious demons that need taking care of Jacuzzis are for reserved for pregnant women only.

‘X’ really made you believe that improving the efficiency of your mitochondria is the panacea of health. Unfortunately It isn’t going to fix your deficiency in purpose. Just like increasing your DHT isn’t going to turn you into a man. You’re gonna have to go deeper.

We all know we are individual and protocols needs to be individualized but most of you see someone’s protocol & think you need to copy it or change your own. Maybe it is time to dust off your own protocol. Examine it. Make a change or make a try. But make it your own. Also follow Lawrence for the best Warrior Sage sh*t. If you’re into that kind of a thing. And I am.

You know that feeling of serenity whilst walking through nature? Turns out there’s a corresponding biological substrate for the sensation Did you know that exposure to forest-rich air causes inhalation of phytoncides that decrease serum cortisol and adrenaline? Welcome to the practice of forest bathing (Shinrin-Yoku)

Those running indefinite ‘TRT+’ protocols with chronically elevated testosterone may experience positively driven aggression + goal pursuit due to increasing DA and AR signalling But you’ll reach burn out if you don’t meet the turn-over rate I’m NOT advising this approach but if you’re going to do it, the best additions are those which: - buffer against volatility (GABA + Neurosteroids) eg pregnenolone, low dose progesterone, ganaxolone, mag threanate/taurinate - protect dopaminergic tone (eg. bromantane, selegiline) - support neuronal mitochondria (eg. NAD+, methylene blue, ubiquinol,PQQ) - bias cognitive flexibility (eg, NSI-189, Low-dose lithium orotate, Urolithin A)

when you realise that all human behaviour is just downstream manifestation of adaptive coping mechanisms, people become much easier to understand people project onto others what they cannot acknowledge, tolerate or integrate within themselves All your strongest held ‘beliefs’ can be traced back to fear there are no exceptions

I can (non-ironically) tell you that two of gods greatest gifts to man were autism and androgens an unrivalled propensity for pattern-recognition combined with an amplification of temperament - that, when guided correctly, gifts the personality with a torque that - 1. Allows the mind to see structures that others miss, and 2. Affords a will capable of acting on them. channelled with intent, its becomes something close to superhuman unfortunately I can’t teach autism but I can teach you how to effectively combine the 2

Tesofensine might be the strongest appetite supressant I’ve ever encountered (I’ve tried them all) Genuinely had me wondering if I’d ever be able to eat again For those who can out-eat all the GLP’s, sleep through adderall, and question wether the online modafinil hype is an Indian affiliate scam, this one’s for you

Outstanding article, @LawrenceElliots. Having dealt with this my whole life (without knowing what it was) I see so much of this playing out in my life up until now. Low dose extended release Adderall has been a game changer for me - it raises my baseline dopamine level enough to get me going and keep me from chasing hits. But it doesn't overload me and force me into chasing stupid shit that just happened to catch my attention at the wrong time. I've tried to focus on tweaking things into a more "normal" range when it comes to neurochemistry, rather than trying to optimize. Minimizing the downsides has worked better than any other approach I've tried.

Most people won’t read this. Less will understand what it means to balance both sides of the coin. Even less still will have the sheer audacity to attempt such a voyage.

Whilst true in mythology, it still has a negative bearing on your attractiveness (as a man) in the eyes of a female whilst the same rule is not reciprocated - a woman’s social presence has 0 bearing on her attractiveness in the eyes of a man. Of course, the lesson here is to never listen to a woman when she tells you what she desires in a man