the two bad jobs had a lot in common
- smartest people felt project was doomed
- team split into the "clueless" and the "demoralised"
- truth felt weirdly anti-mimetic there
in retrospect — when the smartest people begin leaving, this is a sign the truth doom loop is about to begin:
in retrospect, there was an "endless pool of infinite self-work" i could have churned on at two previous jobs, trying to fit the environment better or have it fit me
people get stuck this way all the time, right? reading self-help books, trying to make a relationship work