Then another voice comes through.
Different person.
Different story.
Same ache underneath it.
They said they felt—
outside.
Not geographically.
Existentially.
Like everybody boarded something.
Train left.
Doors shut.
And somehow
they’re still standing on the platform.
Watching.
World going by.
Birthdays.
Weddings.
Promotions.
Vacations.
Seasons.
People posting:
BEST YEAR EVER!!!
while you’re trying to remember
what your own baseline felt like.
And that’s when I heard word number two.
Disconnected.
Yeah.
Disconnected.
And damn, that one stayed with me.
Because how could you not be?
Disconnected from friends
who stopped asking.
Disconnected from doctors
who don’t know.
Disconnected from science
that moves in increments
while your life is moving in years.
Disconnected from politicians
who discovered the miraculous medical intervention
of changing the subject.
Disconnected from institutions
whose emergency ended
considerably earlier
than some people’s emergency did.
Disconnected from a world
that somehow got louder
while your world got smaller.
And meanwhile—
the feed keeps feeding,
the screen keeps screaming,
the market keeps moving,
the algorithm keeps choosing
which catastrophe gets eighteen seconds
before the finger starts swiping—
war,
heat,
smoke,
flood,
bomb,
border,
ballot,
missile,
market,
meme—
next.
Next.
NEXT.
There’s Trump in the feed,
Insurrection Act in the chatter,
martial law language ricocheting around
while another election gets closer,
cities under sirens,
families under rubble,
oceans breaking temperature records,
surface heat climbing,
smoke crossing borders
that humans drew on maps
but lungs don’t recognize—
and then another rumor—
Russia, plague, quarantine, worker dead—
wait—
what happened?
who confirmed it?
what’s the source?
does the math even work?
and suddenly your nervous system remembers
what it was like
when facts arrived late,
language arrived softened,
certainty arrived manufactured,
and every institution somehow learned
the same magic trick:
make the danger disappear
without making
the danger
disappear
Change the dashboard,
change the standard,
change the language,
change the banner,
change the metric,
change the message,
change the manner
that we measure what’s the matter—
then announce it doesn’t matter.
See the pattern?
No?
Scatter it.
Call the sick dramatic.
Call precautions problematic.
Call the damage anecdotal.
Call the outcome multifactorial.
Call the signal complicated.
Call the evidence “still debated.”
Wait another year.
Another paper.
Another cohort.
Another layer.
Meanwhile somebody’s life is
buffering—
buffering—
buffering…
while everybody else’s loads.
Disconnected.
[at a whisper]
That’s the word.
⸻
But the third one…
the third one pissed me off.
Not because of the person who said it.
Because I knew exactly
what they meant.
Somebody said how triggering it is
when people act like—
don’t you know?
Haven’t you noticed?
Everybody else has…
moved on.
Moved on.
Man.
You think they don’t know?
You think people with Long COVID
somehow missed the announcement?
You think they’re sitting at home going,
“Gee, I wonder why nobody’s talking about COVID anymore.”
Bro.
They know.
They know the world moved on.
They watched it move.
They watched the masks come off.
They watched the signs come down.
They watched the filters never go up.
They watched the dashboards disappear.
They watched the numbers get harder to find.
They watched protections become preferences.
Preferences become politics.
Politics become personality.
Personality become—
“Why are you still talking about this?”
Still?
Still?
You don’t think they know you moved on?
They watched you move on.
They watched workplaces move on.
Schools move on.
Hospitals move on.
Airlines move on.
Restaurants move on.
Governments move on.
Media move on.
Friends move on.
Family move on.