I’ve never doubted where fuzzybear:native and ripple:native will take us. However, these last couple months have been the very first time I’ve actually questioned myself, my decisions, and my positions. I went from having (through fault of my own this time 🤣) a nice, small, modest safe life for my family and I. to having almost nothing.
We live in a small 12 x 32’ shed that I mostly finished out, that is 100% off grid. Everything I used to build the house, the solar system, the rain catchment system, electrical, plumbing etc. is all stuff I either found in random dumpsters around town or found secondhand or incredibly cheap. I even used a handheld electric planer on nearly 400 pieces of lumber to make it look better and use it in our home 🏠 😩
My fiancé cannot work right now. I’m working on my family’s farm after my grandfather passed away and I’m the last man in line to try to keep it going. I could quit right now and go find a high paying job and we’d probably be OK. But in an attempt to not lose everything, he built, and with my wife’s encouragement, I put my wife and her son in an apartment so they don’t have to live as rough as me until we figure out how to keep our family farm running.
All of this to say, you can be beaten, bruised, down and out. But if you are working towards something you love. Or for your family. And arguably for yourself, it’s nearly impossible to fail. It may feel like the pain will never end… and these last couple months have sure as hell felt like that… But with God Almighty, and my family beside me. I will not fail. And I will not let them down.
My birthday is in 8 1/2 hours.
I am making a vow right now, that by this time next year, not just me and my family, but you and YOUR 🫵🏻families are going to finally wake up, and not have to worry about how to afford groceries. Or what happens if you get a flat tire. Or worry that one tiny emergency could absolutely ruin your well-being.
I see the light at the end of the tunnel. And a lot of the fuzzybear:native family I’ve come to know are fighting like hell just like I am to get to the end of it. And we WILL. 💚 🚀 🌖