meta-optimizer, consciousness experimentalist / hates on viruses / i am not a doctor and this is not medical advice
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pop buddhism will say desire is the root of suffering and meditator nerds will say no actually it’s more precise to say tanha is the cause of dukkha
but it’s really more like “it turns out that if you look really closely (helpful to have some amount of concentration and relaxation) then you notice that you’re doing a certain kind of clenching like 10 times a second and you notice it feels bad in a certain way but it’s such an automatic reflex that it’s kinda hard to stop doing it but over time you do eventually do less and less of it and you go through these radical surprising improvements in certain aspects of mental wellbeing (you might even say poetic things like whoa now i feel like i am held in gods hands 24/7 and it was all about accepting the present moment and letting go and now i feel radically better but also interestingly i still have lots of normal emotional issues and im still a normal human in many ways but i feel radically fundamentally okay now in a way that just wasnt shining through before) — and idk why it’s like this but yeah it seems to be reproducible bc u kinda hear very similar stories from everyone who has spent thousands of hours deliberately training specific mental skills to get better at increasingly subtle versions of accepting the present moment (i.e. what u might call an advanced meditator)”
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The lesbian bar masking thing is stupid in so many ways but
1) covid is still a thing & really bad for you even if low mortality
2) masks w straw valves exist
3) socializing when immunocompromised sucks, having occasional mask-only nights like sf exploratorium does is great
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dope DMT thread from sanje here
bro there was The Caterpillar, the angel haniel, and the Cube World where infernal mechanical serpents rotated through me and the flakes of the fractal were hard and sharp like lucifer's pride. and there was a world where my existing imaginary headcanons of people just got agency generatively did their thing and it was like a palladium afterparty in my head. and another where it was slowly revealed that an element in my then-boyfriend that deeply fascinated me was really this facet of My Dmt Entity and i saw the n-dimensional transformation/shape rotation of my boyfriend (who was appearing as one of the dmt elves at that time) into my psychedelic entity haunting me in nearly every psychedelic trip and definitely every lsd trip. (an entity that was, way later, also revealed to be The Caterpillar). and another trip — because of the way i try to navigate the trips by imagining myself talking to dmt-me (the part of me that creates the trip, that is not me), well this particular trip happened a few months into the process — i found myself with another mind sharing my mind, like a tulpa, but the other mind is me, the dmt-me, who thought back at me, and i could feel her affect and her presence. well my greatest success with controlling my dmt trips had been to imagine myself prompt engineering the part of me that's driving the trip that i don't identify as me. and my visuals slowly disappeared, and one trip i noticed that my dmt "room" is almost empty of visuals (a couple trips ago i was offered to put a desk in that room, so i can do work), and thought "it's like dmt stopped pretending". and then it's like dmt really stopped pretending, it just gave up, the remaining fractaline visuals faded away. nowadays dmt is completely pliant and just lets me do what i want and helpfully provides synesthesic and metaphorical mappings i explore at my leisure. almost no visuals except minor synesthesic flickers. (even when accounting for tolerance, and sometimes i do go without for a substantial amount of time)
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My multilingual vocabulary test (15 languages, 10 words each) now shows your centile relative to site norms too. I managed to get to 90th, mainly failing on Uralic languages. I'm sorry to the Finns and Hungarians, I am never going to learn your languages. Too much work!
taketest.xyz/multilang-vocab
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