The problem is really only that you believed the elites about what socialism is, brother. That’s all.
Socialism isn’t some idea. And the framing of “more” or “less” power to the government doesn’t reflect the reality at all. It’s an abstraction. Even “the government” is an abstraction if you really think about it. There are concrete institutions serving concrete interests and purposes.
If we get rid of all the labels, all the slogans, all the dogmas, etc., and just divide on fixing what’s wrong in a way that benefits society over all, that IS how us Communists define socialism anyway.
And if we’re talking about something real, and not an abstract notion, then that’s what we’re talking about when we say “socialism,” you know?
TLDR: for me, it’s always only about the real world